I have been a medical aspirant all my life, but i didn't know that being a medical student in a government college would only remain a dream for the rest of my life. Thanks to the Great Indian Population and not to forget, Reservations. Even though i can't have those golden letters prefixed to my name ever again, yet i keep myself updated about the latest happenings in the Medical field. Sometimes, i feel i have been totally misplaced as a student. But then truth is; everyone else is too. 90% of engineers in India have no interest in Engineering actually, looking into these facts i feel quite at ease thinking, "I am not the only one. This is India and it happens."
For every medical student, the most agitating moments usually are when they enter the D.H for the first time, THE DISSECTION HALL. This is the reason D.H is finally called THE DARAWNA HALL, meaning "The Haunted Hall." D.H. is the place where all the future doctors and surgeons are trained on cadavers; this is where they know anything and everything about the human body, so that they can operate on the living human bodies.
Recently i went through a Dissection video from a college, where the students were almost making fun of the Cadaver. They called it "Cadaver Fashion", they were doing various make up work on the dead body, putting wigs on it. Few of the students were giggling behind the camera. I personally felt how bad it was, it must have been somebody's son, somebody's brother, somebody's father, someone's husband whom, his wife used to love like hell, and now it was nothing more than a dead body. Nothing! Did you notice i used the word "it" for addressing; Non-living. As told by a medical student,” I’ll never donate my body for any research purpose, because only i know what happens with the body. Each and every part of the body is torn apart. Each and every muscle and fascias are ripped off the bones. Each and every organ of the body is cut, cut into small bits and pieces. There is nothing left in the rib cage. The body becomes hollow." The body which once used to be a human; a living one, with his own identification. He might also have been to some school, might have been the topper there, or maybe he had been really a good person. When i came to know that few of the medical students (Not all, mind you) actually do play with the parts… They cut the muscles into square shapes and tell each other,"Le barfi kha." and they start laughing as if they have achieved something great. I don’t' know if they have ever thought that if the same thing happens to his body, how'd his soul feel. It’s a dead body, sure; but it doesn’t mean you can make fun of it. It can't say anything when you cut its muscles apart and throw them, in the garbage box to be incinerated.
As said by a medical student, “No one can teach you Human Anatomy better than a cadaver. It’s the best teacher of Human Anatomy." Yes, it’s like a teacher in fact, more than a teacher. It sacrifices even its body for the sake of research for teaching its students. It doesn’t shout, when you cut its skin. It doesn’t scream, when you tear its muscles. It doesn't cry, when you crush its bones. It makes no noise, it can't talk for itself and how it feels when you play "Barfi game" with its body parts. Indian Educational System in the earlier days believed in "Guru Dakhchhina." Those dead people don't expect anything from us, they don't need anything. There is nothing we can give them to make their souls happy. At least we can respect those departed souls and handle their body, as we handle our books. If not, at least we should stop playing games with the body. No one can sacrifice more than a cadaver to teach, it loses its body, its identification forever. Don't make it lose its respect. Don't hurt their souls if you can’t make them happy. That's the least we can do for them, isn't it?
P.S- My article seems to be against medical students but FYI, I never intended to mean anything like that. Medical Student have to do it so that they can learn for US. I respect Doctors and what they do for us. My article is against "THOSE" few insensitive people.
Cold air was blowing through the window of my bedroom, my body was feeling numb, and my skin was cold; as if I’ve been dead for a long time. I opened my eyes reluctantly, stepped out of my bed, it was dawn. I closed the window and got into my bed again. Slipping into my blanket, i picked up my cellphone and dialed a number, "The idea customer you’re calling has switched off the mobile phone."
I closed my eyes, and maybe a couple of droplets trickled down my cheeks. I spread my palms, not allowing them to fall down on the ground. Her voice echoed in my mind, “Never let your tears fall on the ground, neither this earth is strong enough to bear its pain, nor i am."
I was missing that one person so much. The previous night hadn't been so good for me and for her either. We had a few arguments and finally i hung up. I opened a diary and started reading through the lines. As i flipped through those pages, i realized more and more, how wrong i had been.
Her caring voice echoed in my mind again, “Please open and read this diary, before you start thinking i have stopped loving you, ever. This is my personal diary, I never thought i would give you this, but... i don’t know..." As i went through each and every line, i realized how much she loves me, and how much pain she had endured; just to make my wishes come true. Each and every page made me feel what she feels for me. Finally a poem, ending with "I am always with you. Never let you go."
That moment, that particular moment i wanted to run to her, and hug her so tight that i won’t have to leave her ever. That day i decided I’ll never hurt her, ever again. This time, I called her again and her phone started ringing.
She picked up the call. Before she could say anything, i finished saying,” I love you, and i won't hurt you ever again. Please don't be angry at me." in one breath.
She took a deep breath and said,” Was i angry at you? I didn't know that!"
Have you ever seen,
an angel on earth????
who mesmerizes the world with her oceanic eyes??
shes cute and sweet as ever!!!!
i have seen an angel on earth its you...
Have you ever seen,
an angel on earth????
who sheds tears for others' pains?
shows you the way when you turn insane..
comforts you when you are in need..
she is lovable as a teddy!
i have seen an angel on earth its you...
Have you ever seen,
an angel on earth????
spreading ripples of happiness around her,,
she is as gentle as dove,
i have seen an angel on earth its you...
Have you ever seen,
an angel on earth???
like the dew that are shaken,
from the wings that are waken..
happiness comes down her wings to enchant the world.
i have seen an angel on earth its you...
Have you ever seen,
an angel on earth???
who gives you a hug when you're low..
cheers you up, when you say the world a big NO!
i have seen an angel on earth;
wanna know who's she?
she is the one; my best friend..
........: is the angel's name :)
-Sumit.
Had been thinking about my past lately. As thought of the old days cross my mind, i could feel as if though i am living my life again; the most adorable time of my life, my school days. I remember when i used to get into the campus, on every winter morning how the huge rose garden used to grab my attention. Smell of the sweet roses enchanted my mind, everything around used to be so lush green covered with fresh dew drops. Those roses used to look so resplendent. As the day used to pass the dew drops used to evaporate leaving the roses dry. Sometimes i feel like my life has been quite like those multicolored roses of my school garden. Dew drops came made me happy and went without notice leaving my dry. Back in those days things were so sweet, there was no tension to blast my head off with ache. There were no Semesters, only Terminals. No jealousy, only competition. Neither love, nor the fear of losing it.
But looking into things differently, i don't think life has been that bad to me. I mean If i had lost something, I've gained much more. There is a saying,"There is no regrets in life, only lessons." And i guess i have got my lessons, for sure. Every mistake i committed made me suffer, in its course made me more strong. And here i am standing tall, after overcoming them. I agree, there are few loses that we cannot replenish, but yes we can correct them. can't we? Bottom line is I know, I'll make my parents proud of me. I'll marry the girl i want to, NO WAIT... I NEED TO. Right now, my life feels stable, and why not? when every morning you have someone to wake you up and give you a hug? It makes my day. I don't regret growing up, yet i miss my school days.
Lines from my school anthem said..
"Oh De Nobili hats off to thee;
To your colors true we shall ever be."
De Nobili School. I miss you.
The moment you walked away,
In spite of my pleadings to you to stay.
Did you ever realize after?
How did you feel, when you tore my heart?
Did you ever feel anything,
Even a little pain?
when you made me cry through out the night?
Did you realize the contradicting feelings,
I had to fight, inside my heart?
How did you feel, when you tore my heart?
Did you look at my eyes,
Through the Silver Moon?
When i gazed at it with my watery eyes?
Thinking you must be doing the same..
How did you feel, when you tore my heart?
Did my memories ever cross you mind?
Did you ever miss me in your life?
like i always do,
like i always remember you!
How did you feel, when you tore my heart?
Did you ever recall my words?
The times when i said,'I LOVE YOU"?
The times when you blushed and hugged me tight?
How did you feel, when you tore my heart?
Do you ever miss my care?
When you were sick, and i ask god is it fair?
Did you ever call my number and cut your call?
Did your heart miss me? Miss my eyes?
How did you feel, when you tore my heart?
Did your lips shake?
While taking my name...
Why did you forgot me,
in midst of all the fame?
How did you feel, when you tore my heart?
Didn't you feel anything?
When you forgot the promises you ever made to me?
Didn't it hurt even a little,
while pushing me into the deep dark hell?
How did you feel, when you tore my heart?
There is one last thing i want to say,
"WHY ON EARTH DID YOU COME TO ME?
MADE ME SEE YOU AS MY LOVING LIFE?
WHEN YOU HAD TO TEAR MY HEART INTO BITS."
Didn't you feel anything,when you tore my heart?
-Sumit
I MISS YOU
I miss u,
I miss your meteoric eyes,
as the sun rises in the
morning, which brings brings light to the darkness of my bewildering life.
I miss u.
I miss u!
I miss ur soothing care,
as the cool morning breeze,
which soothes the pain in my heart,
and calms down my burning rage.
I miss u.
I miss u,
I miss the way you refresh my mind,
when it turns insane.
just like the dew drops on the blanket of sun burned grass.
I miss u.
I miss u,
I miss u when i see the butterflies fly;
I miss ur free spirit the way you
waana fly high up in your imagination's sky
I miss u.
I miss u,
I miss u when i hear the birds sing;
as their melody breaks the solitude of my life
and fill up the empty space with the harmony of nature,
I miss u.
I miss u,
I miss u in the summer,
when the thirsty earth craves for rains,
I crave
for u n your company,
I miss u.
I miss u,
I miss u when the springs
arrive,
n the new born buds blossom into flowers,
and spread their fragrance
to enchant d world!!
I miss you in the winters,
when it chills up my spines,
and the world looks so resplendent.
I miss the warmth of your care.
I miss you,
I miss you
I miss you besides me every time i feel low,
and the way you cheer me up,the way you uphold my broken confidence.
I miss you and your support.
I miss you.
I miss you,
every time i walk along a lonely road,
I miss you every time i walk along a lonely road,
on the BOULEVARD OF BROKEN DREAMS,
I always miss you around,
I miss you.
I miss you,
I miss you when i think of a place,
where heaven is not hypothetical
where heaven is just in your one smile,
I miss you.
I am blessed to have you around
I miss you,, you mean a lot to me...
- SUMIT
I miss her when i am awake, i miss her when i am asleep, i see her in the morning,, hear her in the night... I miss her when i am in a croud... i miss her when i am lonely... i miss her when i am low.. i miss her, when life is too slow.
I miss her in the morning,,, i miss her in at night.. i miss her each hour.. i miss her every minute.. i miss her in my life...
just wanna hold her in my arms.. and feel how complete i am..
I MISS YOU>>>> MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART :)
Corporate...hmmm, changing my stream came as a surprise to me. yes, for me too it was a surprise. From the beginning, when i started understanding my dreams, i always wanted to be a doctor. That is why i chose Science as my main subject. I was good at it, but then i don't know, what went wrong. Something that i might have never noticed, Something, i really don't know. My dreams, all broken down into pieces, everything burned into Ashes, forever. I wonder, why God does this every time?? I mean, why does he have to take such difficult tests?? Why??The fact that i would never be a Doctor kills me, but what kills me more, is i would have to be someone; THAT SOMEONE, what i never wished to be. A Corporate. I never wanted to be a corporate, this whole corporate world is filled with Daemons, in a human's body. They cheat, they cheat and again they cheat some more. May be i would be a Corporate, but I'll try keep the real me Alive. i don't wanna be one of those greedy people. Lord give me strength!!
I WISH
I wish, I could turn back time,
Impossible it might seem,
I wanna feel the rush in my veins,
Of the day I saw you again...
I wanna live those moments again!!!
Days had passed, and months had too,
And maybe you’d forgotten, those sweet memories few.
Everything seemed changed, fresh and new...
The old times evaporated, like last morning’s dew.
I wanna live those moments again!!!
It was a new you, I thought it might be,
Maybe you don’t know, maybe you’ve forgotten me.
I wanted to wave at you, but I couldn’t even try,
Maybe the even thought of it, made me very shy!!
I wanna live those moments again!!!
I kept asking, your whereabouts from my mates.
Barely did they answer, thanks to my fate!!
I wanted to see you, I don’t know why...
I didn’t, I didn’t wanna say the final goodbye...
I wanna live those moments again!!!
I found you one day,
That one best day of my life...
When you smiled that day,
Which ended my thought’s civil strife...
I wanna live those moments again!!!
From that day, I’ve known more of you.
Every hour of everyday...
Some of which you did,
And some you didn’t even say...
I wanna live those moments again!!!
And now, if you feel like leaving...
Going far away from me...
I am not gonna let you still...
I know you are with me...
And I trust that; you always will...
Wont you??
-SUMIT
What do you do?? what do you do when, a person whom you care about is in such a situation where she/he doesn't even doesn't want to live. And you are so helpless that you can't do anything. Don't you feel,"Wish things didn't turn out that way!!" ? what do you do when that person is in tears and you want to give him a hug, but you can't?? because you are so far apart that meeting that person is next to impossible?? what do you do?? when you want that person to smile, but that person, doesn't? what do you do when you wish, you could finish the discrimination on the basis of sex?? what do you do? when you find a bird, who is meant to be free, is captivated is such a small space where it even finds difficult to breathe?? what do you do?? What do you do when you see an extremely talented person is being robbed of every thing? What do you do?? I wish i could do something, something that changes the world, and the way things are. I wish, and i would try MY BEST
